Life is unpredictable. It often won't go the way you want it to be. It depends on how you see it and how you going to face it. However, it really requires alot of courage to motivate yourself to move on.

There's something that will keep increasing and can never decrease, that's age. Sometime, i hope i could just stop at the age of 18 whereby i can still depend on my family, problem-free or maybe i should say ignoring it. But, DREAM ON! Now, at the age of 21 - in the working life. I'm no longer a kid, looking forward to Chinese New Year. As i've started working, preparing ang bao for parents became a MUST, paying for goodies and other necessities. Getting ang bao for extra allowances is not my thing anymore. It has became getting ang bao to cover out the big hole in the pocket. I've to pray hard that the ang bao that i've collected is enough to cover and no loss please. I think working adults looking for... is BONUS instead of ang bao. CNY seems to be a normal day to pass by that's all, probably a week to allow me to spend more time with my boyfriend.

& Yes... I'm not entitled to the bonus because i'm a contract staff. See, no extra income yet have to spend more. Now, my colleagues... probably didn't realised i'm just sitting at the back. They're talking about how fabtabulous their bonus are, how great is the medical benefits for this year. Who can understand my feeling, nyone? What's worse, probably my parents didn't know i've no bonus too. What's wrong with my life?

I'm a dumb-ass! Months ago, i remembered my sis, brother, sis-in-law kept asking me to look for a perm job to get the 13th month. My answer is always... "Oh, they're extending me!"and "but i enjoyed working here, all the colleagues are very nice to me"

To be exact, i think i'm just lazy to look for a job, i'm lazy to do up resume, i'm afraid of going interview, i'm afraid of new faces, i'm scared of new environment and i'm afraid that new colleagues aren't going to be as friendly. Okay, i guess you all can see that i'm someone afraid of changes.

Initially, i thought i'm perfectly fine without all those medical benefits, dental benefits or even bonus, as long as the people treats me good and its worth staying for. I thought leave and medical leave is the only things that i need. However, when time comes by.. i actually can't. Seeing them happily taking their bonus is the worst day in my whole working life. Having medical leave and leave pro-rated isn't making my working life any better - a 3 days leave and 4 days medical leave for this 3 months contract.

Maybe it's time for me to grow up. Its time for me to be independence, stand up and start running.

Before i can start running, i'm facing another major problem. What industry should i go for. Tough thing right, i know. I'm really stressed! The moment i start thinking, i feel like i'm gonna break down anytime. Let's pray hard & wish me luck then! Oh, my colleague just informed me that my company is employing again - a position that i can consider.

Tell me, HOW TO ENJOY MY CNY?!?

Haha! On an unrelated note, Huihuan darling cheer-ed me up! (:

HuiHuan says:
Yep, wont. Must have faith n trust in yourself!
I still waiting for u n his wedding. Hahaha. engagement also can. Hahah

FUNNY RIGHT?!? LOL!!!!
I LOVE HER LA. HAHAHA!

anw, we're saying that... i'm no longer ): over my boyfriend book-in like how i used to be because i've get used to it as mentioned in my previous post. Luckily my relationship is pretty stable right now, i just have to trouble over my future.

Cheerios to new job, new life, new environment and Better future! :D